Yesterday was the Summer Equinox, and it’s got me taking stock of how my life has moved forward this year. When I reviewed my 2014, I noted that this year’s theme was “enrich”. On the whole, I feel like I’ve been true to that idea. I’ve turned and nurtured my soul soil with friends and family, my own internal work, and so much love with my man. We sit and talk for hours about our stressors and relationship, and dreams for the future. It’s real, deep and meaningful communication. Our home feels lovely and welcoming; a comfortable place to snuggle down into. He’s even helping me learn how to cook!
But here’s the thing. I still get bogged down in feeling like I haven’t accomplished everything that I wanted to by now. Working out, dancing on the regular, writing my novel, sleeping under the stars, gardening. I’ve kept putting these things off and off during the past three months. “Oh, I’ll start after Randall moves in and get’s settled”, “…after I get back from my work trip”, “…after my ankle feels better”, “…after I watch this Netflix episode”, “…after I’m back from my vacation.” All the while, those intentions are camped out in my brain like big fat pigeons, pecking me with guilt. Procrastination is not a happy campground y’all.
Ought I just strap in, and get it done? Galvanize and go?
But, enriching takes time. Hard pack dirt can take months, years even, to become pliable and healthy soil. I was nowhere near as sealed off as that analogy implies, but it’s good to remind myself of the time needed. My 2015 theme wasn’t ‘action’ or ‘accomplish’, it was ‘enrich’. As such, I think I have to give it more time. I can’t rush it. I have to dig in with the nutrients and be peaceful with myself. Beautiful things have happened so far, and I know there’s more to come.
Anyone else feeling this way about their 2015?
In the meantime though, feel free to check out some of my favorite photos from my trip to NYC to visit my sister – an enriching experience for sure!